So, I stumbled upon this video the other day that really hit close to home.
It was all about how folks with ADHD might not miss people in the same way as others do, especially when we hit adulthood. And let me tell you, it got me thinking because, well, it's true for me.
Let me break it down a bit from my own perspective. See, it's not that I don't miss you because I don't care. Far from it! It's more like my brain is this perpetual motion machine, constantly churning out a gazillion thoughts per second.
Seriously, it's like there's a non-stop marathon of ideas, tasks, and distractions running through my mind at all times.
And then there's this thing called object permanence. You know, the concept that objects continue to exist even when you can't see or hear them?
For me they don't. Out of sight is quite literally out of mind. So, yeah, that plays a role too. If you're not right in front of me, or if you're not actively engaging with me, my brain sort of files you away.
I do think about you, sometimes. Those moments are sporadic, like finding a rare Pokémon in the tall grass of my thoughts.
When I pause, take a breather, and reflect on our relationship I realise, "Hey, I miss you."
It's crucial to understand that this whole missing-people thing isn't a reflection of my feelings towards you. Nope, not at all. It's just my brain doing its thing—constantly seeking stimulation, trying to juggle a million tasks, and focusing on whatever demands attention in the moment.
So, if you ever feel like I'm not missing you as much as you miss me, then the harsh reality is that's probably true, but please know it's not personal. It's just my brain being its wonderfully chaotic self.
And hey, when I do come up for air and think about you, just know that those moments are genuine and heartfelt, even if they're not as frequent as you might like.
In conclusion, ADHD might make the whole missing-people thing a bit wonky, but it doesn't mean I don't care. If me and my brain let you into our little circle of chaos then you really are loved, you mean the world to me, but my brain's wired a little differently—and that's okay.
I might not miss you, but I do love you - I promise x